I am a healthy 20 year old middle class male.

I am the first person in my family to go to college.

I am pursuing a degree in a field that most people hate.

It's hard.

and I am very good at it.

A couple of my professors have told me that I will be a success if I continue at the rate I am progressing.

My parents tell me they are proud of me, often.

I have a wonderful girlfriend that I love.

there is not a single aspect of my life that, upon self-inspection, is truly negative.



and yet, everytime I cross the street, I contemplating jumping in front of oncoming traffic.

I wish I had the balls.



You see, its not that my life is bad...



it's just that I don't really want it (life)

When I'm not around you, I'm thinking about the next time I will get to be around you.  When I am around you, everything is beautiful.  When we have to part, my heart sinks.  When I'm sleeping, I dream about you.



And I wish it would all stop, because I had my chance with you, and something went wrong.  I don't know if it was something I did, or just because you realized you didn't actually like me.



This is torture, yet I thrive on it.  I love being around you, I love the way you look at me.  I wish I just knew how you felt.  You are so confusing, but I love that too.  Usually I'm not like this.  I'm rational and do not indulge in things that I know will hurt me.  It's scary to say this, but there is no other explanation; I love you.

We've been hooking up all second semester

I dont think i have feelings for you, but i might

It might just be that i like hooking up with you

But your transfering

You tell me its because you cant afford it here

But i really know its because you ex-girlfriend of 4 years goes there

And it sucks

I have found my paradise here. After my best friend died, being molested a few times by his friend when I was too weak to do anything about it and being fucked around with by so many guys, I have finally found it.

And for the first time I feel like I deserve it.

Here comes the joker
We all must laugh
Cause we're all in this together
And we love to take a BATH

If I had gone to the police you would be in jail. Even if they let you out you'd never be allowed near me again.

But even though I was black and bloody I thought they wouldn't believe me, or they'd think it was my fault.

You still call sometimes, still try to spread rumors about me; still try to do anything to prove you have some control

Because, frankly, even if I told anyone, who the hell would believe me after this long?

In high school at parties when I drank me and some of my girlfriends would make out with each other.
Now I walk around all day on campus and see all these hot women and I want to get intimate with them.
I'm a girl who has always identified as being straight so I wouldn't even know where to begin.
Two hot women together is a beautiful thing  

I found this girl

7 years older than me

We fucked

I told her i was 22

she left...

it was awesome!